Poems Of Pilamaya

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Poems and Words written whilst in the

field of Pilamaya

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Water

Spilt water runs everywhere

overflowing from its container

There is no barrier anymore

to contain who you are

Let the river of you flow

into the ocean of now

Let tears unshed and shed

wash the past away as

you dive deep beneath the

waves of emotion

Deep into your watery soul

Shape shifting, flowing, manifesting,

solidifying and melting

Over and over again

Memories of all the time

there ever was

deep in your cells

Memories of change, memories

of new and old

Beginnings, middles and endings

disappearing into the ever

flowing water

 

 

Belonging

I’m back, I’m back

back in the place where I belong,

I was running, running

running for so long

But I’m back, back

Back by the fire, in the warm

Back with friends, loved ones,

teachers old and new

I see your shining face and

at once I know it’s you.

The one I’ve always known,

from the place where I belong,

Calling me back home,

singing me my song.

So many of us are sitting-

come from far and wide,

Back to the light,

and the love of the fireside

We are here altogether-

our animal spirits too

An owl on my arm gently calls

Twit twoo

Through seasons, days and nights,

I believed I was alone.

Running in endless circles,

afraid of the unknown.

But now I’m back, back

back in the place where I belong

Warmly welcomed home,

as if I’d never gone

You knew I’d come back,

when I’d been away too long.

And now I’m going to stay,

back in the place where I belong.

 

 

My Body

A place for so long of pleasure and of pain,

A place I hung out in, only to leave again,

A place that often wasn’t a safe place to be,

A place in which others often visited for free.

A home I disregarded- searching for something more,

A need to escape, there was so much fear at my core,

The journey home hasn’t been easy, there’s been twists along the way,

But now I’m here- I’m hoping and I’m praying that I can stay.

Because home is where the heart is and I know it’s true-

along with kidneys, skin, bladder, brain- eyes, ears and noses too.

It’s a work of complete magic- a mini ecosystem,

A place to feel emotions, happy, sad, lonely there’s no need to escape them!

Because I am safe here and now and I can really feel it’s so-

My consciousness incarnating from my head to my toe.

And through this mystical portal, we enter the many dimensions,

No more this endless plight to vacate on our ascension.

So resting in my body, feeling my feet on the ground,

I’m happy in the ordinary place, knowing it’s myself I have found.

 

 

Love to Little Me

You’re a little girl

And don’t you forget

Not big or strong

There is no need to be yet

You’re a little girl

You’re here to have fun

No need to be a big girl

Walk before you need to run

You’re a little girl

A playful new creature

Silly, funny, crazy,

You paint your own picture

You’re a little girl

Or so they told you so

But fitting into their world

Has never been your goal

You’re a little you

With so much time to grow

So just go at our own pace

And follow your own flow

 

 

Prayer to Mother Earth

Mother Earth is so sensual

She whispers to my bones

Caresses my muscles

And tickles my toes

She speaks through my body

Through the atoms that collide

and metamorphise

As my hands reach down to caress her

I am in love

In love with her, in love with me

In love with this love that flows from her

Devoted to her

Devoted to me as part of her

Asking her to show me what it is

That I can do for her

When she has done so much for me

Gaia,

Sensual, Ferocious Mother

Lover, sister, beloved

Beloved Gaia

Caressing my muscles

Tickling my toes

Drawing me down to my knees

In reverence for her

Great mother to all

Let me never forget

Let me feel and remember you

In every breath

And beat of my heartLet me feel you in every movement

This body of yours makes

Great Gaia

Great Warrior

Keeping us alive

Allowing us to thrive and grow

Humbling us, feeding us,

Giving us everything we need

And asking for nothing in return

Let me devote myself to you

Make love with you

As I walk and dance

And sing for you

Great Mother, Lover, Sister

Beloved

Beloved Mother Earth

 

 

Prioritise Pleasure

Prioritise pleasure little one,

The wise woman said to the child

Prioritise pleasure.

But not the pleasure sold to you by adverts or on TV

Not the pleasure that costs you your freedom

Not the pleasure that binds you to it in addiction and pain

Don’t give away yourself to receive pleasure

Find it inside of yourself

Find it in the way your body moves

In the way it expands and contracts with each breath

Find it in the way your hands brush, stroke and touch each new surface with

wonder

Find it in the way your eyes open each morning to meet a day completely

unique from any other

Find it in the way your ears hear the wind in the trees and the waves upon the

shore

Find it in the laughter that shakes your body and causes the muscles on your

face to spread and create great gaping smiles.

Prioritise pleasure

The wise woman said to the child

Prioritise the pleasure of each moment lived,

of every expansion and contraction,

of every up and down

And the child smiled

Knowing that these words were true.

 

 

The Ghost in the Castle

“Ah-hah, ah hum, a hah” said the Ghost. Though none could see him, they

could sometimes feel his cool presence as he floated through the castle, sending

shivers down their spines as he effortlessly floated through their seemingly

solid bodies. It had taken him years, nay centuries of floating around in the

ether of this castle, no longer inhibited by the need to use doors or stairs but

still locked into its mass by forces unknown to him, to finally discover the truth

of his life. What he had not managed to discover whilst still housed in his fleshy

form was that joy, intimacy and relationship could only be fully formed and

experienced when he stopped trying to be anyone he was not. He reflected that

his whole life had been spent trying to be someone or other. A good Prince, a

brave King, a loving husband. But when had he taken the time to ask himself

how he really felt, or what he really needed in the moment? When had he ever

given voice or time to all the hidden parts of himself he was too ashamed to

acknowledge? Years of seemingly aimless floating around had brought up

replays of exchanges and situations in endless streams across his consciousness

as his Ghost form entered different rooms about the castle. Scenes from his

childhood-witnessing his parents arguing and getting told off from wetting the

bed, memories from his loveless marriage and endless days at court acting a

role he’d never felt fit to play. But recently he’d taken a new perspective on

things, as the fragments from his past were finally able to be fully seen and

understood, how his beliefs were formed, where his behaviour had come from,

he began to see things differently. He had given and lost so much of himself

along the way-that was why he had been stuck in the in-between worlds for so

long. But now having gathered up these lost parts of himself through his

deepened insight and integration, he felt a shift happening inside of himself, a

readiness to leave his old life and embark on the next part of his journey into

the unknown. As his ephemeral form started to disappear, a soft sigh escaped

his lips, for finally he could relax knowing that all was righted within him.

 

 

 

Fire Prayer

Oh great fire, lend me your strength

Borrow me your flame

To do what must be done

Great Agni

Warrior of the flame

Purveyor or clear seeing clear action

Honour me with your gifts so I my best serve

the people

Great Sun in the Sky

Provider of life, light and daytime

Ignite me with your warmth

Moorish me with your beauty and majesty

So I may shine brightly as the truth of who I am

Great fire in my belly

Digesting, transmuting,

Moving me forward towards my goal

I thank you and honour the work you do for me

Day in, day out

Great fire in my heart

The deep longing for wholeness

For unconditional love

To be one and free.

Great fire of the universe

I honour you and bow down to your magnificence.

Great fires help me now

Let go of the limiting belief to be small

The fear to be myself

Give me the strength to expand and fill the space

Made for me in this universe

As we all grow to inhabit our fullest potentials

Oh great fire I thank you.

 

A Light Emerged

From out of the cosmos came a small bright light.

It didn’t know itself to be anything other than light but it knew its direction.

Onward it sped passing galaxies and dimensions-

On it sped gathering speed and purpose until it naturally started to slow down

and a sense of calm rippled through the universe.

Then the light became brighter, seemingly filling the whole of eternity until

suddenly, but also as if there had never existed any time before-

The light emerged into beingness.

 

 

The Ordinary Place

A place, which is more of a space

A space that is uniquely me-

No more, no less

Because more or less do not matter here.

It is a place of spontaneity

Of wisdom and innocence

A space no other can inhabit

For each of us have our place.

There is no time there,

And yet all time is present

And always now.

I am here

And it is always enough,

And never too much.

I do not need to try to be anything

I am not,

And I am always

Right where I need to be.

 

 

I am

I am the Earth

I am she and he and they

I am rain, wind and storm

A kiss on a sunny day

I am anger

Brave and true

I am frustration, crying

And feeling rather blue

I am seasides

Ice creams and sand

I am mountain tops, deserts

Rainforests and

And I am here now

And that’s all I need to be

I am Fleur, I am human

I am most wonderfully me

 

 

A Way to Love

When love is here

It wants to dance and sing and celebrate

For love knows no boundary, no limit no separation or goal

Love flows- sometimes heavy like the pounding monsoon rain

Noisy and ferocious

Sometimes softly like the gentle caress of a fluffy feather.

I will love like this- openly, fiercely tasting the delights of diversity.

Allowing the beauty I see in the world to be expressed in my love for it and its

people.

I will love like I love the changing seasons-

Like I love hot and cold and salty and sweet.

I will love like a poet loves

And loves like the dapple of sunlight though the trees

Like snowflakes falling on winter ground

Like sunrises and sunsets

Like misty mountains and old trees

I will love and love and love

Until one day there will be nothing left of me...

But love.

 

 

Two sides of the same coin

I am the combining of the two.

I am the opposites that attract

And the opposites that repel.

I am the Sun and the Moon.

I am Yin and Yang.

I am black and white

And day and night.

I am everything and nothing,

Two sides of the same coin

I am right and wrong,

And neither, nor

I am the imperfect in the perfect.

I am the finite in the infinite.

I am me and I am you.

I am love

and it’s true.

 

 

Secure

The edges of my body,

The places in between,

Is where I locate myself,

In amongst all that is unseen.

The wind, the rain, the sun,

My bones, my blood, my brain,

The five great elements,

Bring me home again.

For where there is doubt,

Uncertainty or fear,

True secureness arises,

When I am able to remain here.