Emotional Breakdown or Spiritual Awakening?

At the end of my twenties, I experienced a huge emotional breakdown.
Everything that had once brought me joy—fighting for causes I believed in, dancing through Berlin’s nightclubs, being with friends—suddenly stopped working.

I had created a life on my own terms, following my passions rather than societal expectations.
Yet I found myself deeply unhappy.

I tried to hold it all together—plans to study, to build a future in Berlin—but beneath it, I was slipping into addiction and deeper disconnection.
Eventually, one morning, I woke up and couldn't stop crying.
I had no choice but to face what was happening inside of me.

 

India Calls

During a yoga practice a few weeks later, a voice inside clearly whispered:
Go to India.

I listened.
Within a month, I was on a one-way flight to the foothills of the Himalayas, heading for a small ashram in Rishikesh.
I was anxious and scared, but some deeper current carried me forward.

Very soon after arriving—waking before dawn for meditation and yoga, eating Ayurvedic food, absorbing ancient teachings—I reconnected with something I had long forgotten.
A spiritual force moved from the background to the center of my life.
Floods of gratitude, meaning, and healing poured in.

 

A Healing Journey

I stayed in India for seven months, fully dedicated to inner work.
Through energy awakening in my hands, I was led to study Reiki and open as a channel between dimensions.

Though skeptical at first, the messages and intuitive connections that flowed through me were unmistakable—and healing.
It felt like the magic I had sensed as a child was not only real, but waiting for me.

I spent countless hours each day immersed in self-healing, study, and spiritual practice.

 

What Happened Next?

Returning to Europe, I was a different being.
I felt called to share the gifts and wisdom I had received—but soon learned that the path is never straightforward.

Over the past ten years, I have deepened my spiritual journey—returning to India, traveling to Peru, Greece, Portugal, studying with teachers, plant medicines, and spirit guides.

But more importantly, I have traveled inward—into my own shadows and light, into the multi-dimensional layers of my being.

 

The Inner Work

I have healed childhood sexual abuse and its ripple effects of addiction and attachment struggles.
I have confronted trauma, loneliness, and the messy, beautiful paradox of being human.

I have fallen, risen, fallen again—and each time, life has met me with exactly the lessons I needed for the next part of the journey.

I have worked with my ancestors, reclaimed lost parts of my soul, and learned how to be fully here:
rooted in this earth life, connected to something far greater.

 

What I Have Learned

Healing is not about becoming perfect.
It’s about becoming fully, truly yourself.

It’s about learning how to be human—how to hold both the light and the pain, the beauty and the brokenness, the unity and the mess of existence.

Healing changes everything: relationships, health, creativity, purpose.
It ripples outward into the world.

This is life’s work—and I am profoundly grateful to walk this path.

 

The Future

I am currently studying to become an Integrative Psychotherapist, deepening my understanding of how to bring agency, compassion, and healing into human experience.

 

Come Work with Me

It is a deep honor to share what I have learned with you.
If you feel called, please book a free Discovery Call to explore how I can best support you.

 

I see you.
You are welcome here.

 

With love and blessings,
Fleur